Spoiler!! Lots of rambling in this post!

So lots has gone on since my last post....most of which I am going to keep to myself.  It's made me extremely sad but sometimes stuff happens and you just have to deal with it and see what happens ....It's been hard on me but I'm trying to figure some stuff out on my own.  I know I've lost someone who I was very close with but I felt like I did what I thought was best for me at the time....I know I may not have handled it the best but I did what I thought needed to be done.  I still feel horrible and it hurts me every day to think that I've lost this person but I know it probably wouldn't be the same now anyway and I know why they wouldn't want to be around/talk to me anymore and I really just can't figure out how to put my feelings into words yet and I'm still not sure what to do or say or not say yet so sorry for the confusing message or non message or whatever this rambling idiot is putting {and by idiot, I mean me and my talking!  ; ) lol}

On a happier note, it is my 6th wedding anniversary tomorrow.  WOW...I can't believe it's already been that long...sometimes it seems like it has flown by and sometimes it seems like it should be longer! LOL....I'm super excited since we get to hang out and spend the day together and actually get to go do some stuff instead of just staying around the house.   I can't wait to go shopping tomorrow and just have a great time....now let's just hope the stores are ready for me and I can actually find stuff! LOL....Why does it always seem like you find the best stuff (and in your size) when you have no money to really shop....but when you have money and can spend it they have nothing that you like or that is in your size?  It's so frustrating! LOL  So wish me luck! 
 I have finished 16 of my 100 books for this year so not too bad so far.  I figured out that to easily finish my goal in time, I need to read a little over 8 books each month to stay on track.  Well so far so good since it's around the first of March and I'm halfway finished with #17 and #18 for my list.  Everything's been crazy lately or I would probably be a lot farther on this goal!  But I'm proud of myself so far!
I have recently restarted my diet post ice storm and have been doing pretty good.  Most days I have been staying within my calorie range (with the exception of the horrible week last week but hey I know I'm an emotional eater and I was extremely distraught and even though it didn't really help, I still endulged quite a bit) but stress kicked in and I guess evened out the poundage of my overeating because I still managed to lose weight.  I have also been working out at the Simmons Center...not as much as I would like but I've been making myself go at least 4 hours every weekend...I figure if I never excercise all week but can fit in 2 great workouts Saturday and Sunday that helps a lot.  It would be better if I did it more often though and I realize I would get faster results too. I know it's gonna take me awhile to get to what I want to be anyways and the more steady I lose the easier to keep it off for me.  I really have enjoyed running on the treadmill and riding the bike there and lifting (well only once so far! LOL) and swimming when I go though.  Oh and I'm super pumped cause we should be getting my treadmill in a couple of weeks!!!  We gotta get rid of our computer and desk first or at least the desk and move the computer to make it fit but then we'll have one in our home!  There are lots of days I wish we had one because I would make myself workout more often with it.

That's really about all my news or at least all I feel like sharing right now.  Oh and we found out my boss is prego this week too!  She's due at the beginning of November.  She's been trying to get pregnant for almost 2 years now so a big congrats to her!  I know this was long and rambley and probably pretty confusing and unthought out but that's about all for now....hope everyone has a great week!!