When I Grow Up....

T-minus 4 days till my vacation starts!! WOO HOO!! So I'm super excited for it to be here! I'm going to stay at my mom's for most of it. One Tree Hill Season 6 comes out on Tuesday of next week so we're going to have a marathon during my vacation! LOL...we both are totally addicted to the show and can't wait to see what has happened. (we both missed season 6 on tv so we're really on a cliff hanger here! LOL) I think on Friday of next week Terry and I are going to OKC to shop and hopefully both get some new shoes! LOL I'm totally excited!! Honestly I don't have tons of news lately. My life has been rather boring...which isn't a bad thing...much better than drama! LOL...I got to see my bestie last night! It's been like a month since we've seen each other and I know she's starting school again soon so I was very glad to get a day with her before the busyness starts again! LOL...Ok I don't know if I've talked on here yet about my thinking of going to college. Well I am (thinking that is). I really want to go to be a elementary school teacher. It's something I've wanted to do for a long time. I'm wanting to start going to school in the spring semester hopefully. Although the closer that gets, the more scared I am of what if I actually do it....I mean do I really have what it takes to be a teacher? I'm really freaking myself out about it and I haven't even applied yet..but it's something I've wanted to do forever....like tonight I looked at my friend Angel's pics of her new classroom and I thought to myself wow...that could be me in a few years....I don't know if I have it in me....I'm not all that creative and honestly I'm not that good with kids...I mean they like me and all and I like them I just don't know how to talk to them or be around them very good lol....I think it's kinda ironic since i would be around kids all the time as a teacher....maybe it's just because I'm never around kids anymore so I don't know what to do with them...I think part of it is my shyness around new people but I think it gets worse around kids lol....it's totally something I would have to get over if I wanna do this! But I really want to go to school and that's really the only thing I wanna do when I grow up....so I guess I'm gonna have to start figuring out what I want and go for it....oh and by the way Angel...I'm so excited you got a teaching job!! I hope you have a great year with the kiddos (and the other teachers lol)!!!! But I guess that's all I have to say for today....oh and I'm now done with 40 of my 50 books before the end of the year! I've read them all in like 2 or 2 1/2 months! So proud of myself! WOO HOO!

Summer is in the air...

It's a new week...not really much going on in my life. There are lots of things I wish I was doing but oh well....maybe another day. Here lately, I'm really wishing I would've went to college. Yes, I know that I could still go but it's just not the same. I could already be graduated with a job in my field....I'm sure wishing I would've went into teaching...that's what I really wanted to do...that or be a doctor...and to think I wouldn't be far from getting ready for my residency somewhere either....well that's just crazy! I wonder where I would be in my life if only I had changed a few things....would I have been married already or would I have kids already (I'm sure glad that one hasn't happened yet!) I mean where would I be teaching or going to school or just what would I be doing in general....I'm not totally sure what has sparked my thoughts on this subject of what ifs lately but it keeps playing in my head. Maybe my hubby and I should move and go to school somewhere....he keeps talking about wanting to go and now I kinda want to but I don't know if he still does! lol.....probably not going to happen though....but it's fun to dream and wish and wonder....maybe the fact that summer is practically here and I'm stuck inside work all day looking at how pretty it is is totally making me rethink my decision....I know that if I was a teacher....I'd practically be done for the summer and get to do whatever I wanted for a couple of months before heading back to work! I am getting the urge to just drop everything and move to somewhere different and start a new life....now if you know me at all...that's totally unlike me....or at least the move totally off and start over part is....I'm horrible with change...good or bad....wanted or unwanted....but I really think it might be nice....I'm sure all these restless feelings will change but it's kinda interesting to think about....well that's all my thoughts for today.....have a great week!!!